Gratitude Check, Day 3

 Performance Success 

Rusty Nutz, Drag King

When I started doing drag, I was coming from one of the roughest and toughest times of my young adult life - I was previously physically/emotionally/verbally abused by 2 lovers bck2bck & then sexually assaulted - Hate Crime some may say..... 

Being on stage came naturally for me - being since I was a "bad kid" who was often found in their bedroom growing up b/c I was grounded frequently, I entertained for an audience that was made up, but I performed a lot in my bed room for this imaginary audience. Which, I believe is the reason I find being on stage so comfortable and natural. As anyone could imagine, this young child was starving for love and appreciation. 

I am happy with my success and I am pushing my boundaries a little further this year by producing a few shows. I am grateful to be able to entertain, bring people together for a good time, provide a safe place to meet new people and raise $$ for the community. What also feels really good is being able to help other performers that are newer or new to our state by providing them a place to perform as well and mentorship. 

I have been on so many show flyers, performed for large & small prides, performed in festivals, produced and worked with MLB and hopefully ABQ Isotopes & even NM United. I am grateful to be able to perform all over the USA for so many people. Its an honor and I am entirely grateful to have this safe and comfortable outlet of performance art. Challenging myself this year with burlesque aspect as well as putting myself out there at prides and festivals all over the USA. 

I LOVE RUSTY NUTZ. KEEP GIVING BACK. 

Gratitude Check Day #2

KQ 

So grateful for KQ and how amazing of a spouse she is. I dont really understand why I am so lucky to have her in my life? I dont deserve her but I am working on treating her better and not taking her for granted. Our marriage shifted in the last 2 years, and being able to still have her and our marriage on the other side of all of this is a blessing. Right now, my wife is helping me care for my mouth which was just operated on. She has been caring for me and she is the best caretaker. She is amazing and I am learning to re-trust her. I need to learn to talk better with her. The more I take care of myself, the better I can take care of my wife and my marriage. Its really obvious. 

I vow to continuously work adjusting my life so its not toxic, so I can bring out the fucking amazing qualities I love about Angela and nurture them, let them grow & encourage her to grow. Her love for me, that I feel from her and what she brings into my World and my heart and soul is something I can not describe. I just know she is my piece and I need to do a better job at treating her better, being just nice and respectful towards her. I dont know where this went but I am finding it again. Letting go of resentment and working on loving her in the best way that I can. I am SO grateful for my marriage and my love, KQ 

30 Day Gratitude Check, Day 1. 01172022

Day 1 - Connections 

I am grateful for the connections I have made with a lot of people in the cities I have lived in. Because of Sara from EFC, I was inspired to start this daily gratitude check in challenge, for 30 days - at least. Today, being grateful for these connections with all of these people, some of whom I call friends - help me heal. The bond and connection to people is strong and beautiful. Like, If I didn't build a connection with Sara at my old job, then I would have not been inspired by her influence to start this daily check in which is going to help me grow up and mature and really really understand the importance of gratitude. 

Presently, I am working on building connections in my home city. 

I sent Sara a thank you message via FBM.